Tuesday, March 5, 2013 9:24 AM
i want
i want something meaningful
meaningful enough for me to breath
breath easy to never to gasp
gasp for what downfall may come
come down until the clouds crashing
crashing with painful disappointment
disappointment that brings out the tears
tears from my parents, my friends, myself.
i want something to hold on to
to that somebody that i want to be with
there has been a few names
names which never seem to get out of my mind
my mind seem to think i'm delusional
delusional to the point where i need help
help that seems i never seem to be open too.
i want to be somebody
somebody that makes up for everything
everything from the pain i've caused
to the howl of darkness and despair
despair that seems to always follow me around
around until i can't seem to even trust anybody anymore
anymore longer and i think i will break down again
again the cycle repeats itself.
i want to not be a failure
to not let everybody's hope down
down to which they seem to never will forgive me
me to which i will never forsake myself
myself that is all there is to be blame
blame should i fall and can't exceed expectations
expectations that i have set far above the clouds
clouds that yell at me i am able to do it
it, to which i don't deserved to be a FAILURE.
left;
9:24 AM